Sadness Stories

I was going out with this guy for past one and half year. he was very abusive, insensitive and inconsiderate throughout the relationship. he would cheat on me and i would keep on forgiving him. in the end, he dumped me. he told me that even when he touched me and when he had sex with me, he felt nothing for me. i felt ugly and miserable. i am like, am i so bad that he never even felt anything for me. i used to call him 20 times a day and he wouldn’t call me back. i used to text him begging me to call back and he wouldn’t call back. i showed up at his house once, he didn’t open the door. the second time i showed up, he opened the door and asked me what the fuck i was doing and that he is a very respectable man living in a respectable neighborhood and that i’m a stalker and that he will report me. that day and this day i haven’t called him and it hurts so bad. i wish he had taken a gun and shoot me in my head.